Written by: Aaron Tate
Appears on: Long Line of Leavers
Lyrics:
SometimesI fear maybe I’m not chosen
You’ve hardened my heart like Pharaoh
That would explain why life is so hard for me
And I am sad Esau hated
Crying against what’s fated
Saying father please, is there any left for me
Cast out my doubts, please prove me wrong
‘Cause these demons can be so headstrong
Make my walls fall, please prove me wrong
‘Cause this resentment’s been building
Burn them up with your fire so strong
if you can before I Baal, please prove me wrong
I fear maybe this is all just a game
Our friends and our families all play too
Harness the young and give some comfort to the old
Don’t let my doubts prove true
Draw me close and hold me near to you
Keep me still until the day you
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From the Author: “As our understanding of spiritual things increases, so can our doubts become more complex and worrisome. This song is a prayer for God to destroy those frightening doubts that keep me from him.”
What it Means:
“You’ve hardened my heart like Pharoah”…refers to Romans 9:17,18.
“And I am sad Esau hated…”…refers to Romans 9:13.
If you can before I Baal”…is a play on words. He means, “before I bail”, but he uses the homonym ‘Baal’, because it relates to the previous line, “Burn them up with your fire so strong” when God showed he was more powerful than Baal and burned up Elijah’s soaked altar in 1 Kings 18.